IDENTITY- who am I?

It's a really big question to ask yourself 'who am I?' but an even bigger expectation to know the answer straight away. This week I've been reminded that self-discovery is a process, a journey and it certainly is not linear.

I've felt very overwhelmed trying to figure out my 'personal brand'. Constant doubt has honestly stressed me out. In my eagerness to learn from different sources telling me what to do and how to grow my 'brand' I felt more lost. I felt a little hopeless at one point trying to create useful content that is seen as well as heard.

What I came to acknowledge was that 'Ludel' is my creative outlet. It presents an opportunity for me to shed light on lessons I've learned along my journey and give a unique perspective on it too. Why I thought that wasn't good enough is a whole different story but I've accepted Ludel is Ludel. She will evolve in her own time.

My struggles

• Pressure on myself.

Putting my content online mentally heightened the pressure on me to meet 'aesthetic' standards also fit a particular 'niche'. It's been a constant battle of trying not to change who I am and what I enjoy just to 'blend' in or make my work more appealing.

• The feeling that what I do isn't interesting (enough).

It doesn't feel right or natural for me to share things I don't want to in order to be a 'public figure' or whatever you want to call it. So I've not been as consistent or fully content with how my work looks for a while actually.

• Trying to do too much.

I am not the best multi-tasker and creating different types of content has been difficult. I've got more free time (as of now) but even then 'balance' has felt very much out the window. This has shown itself to be that my mind is all over the place lately. I'm working hard when I could be working smarter. Yet I feel I'm not fully utilising my God-given gifts at times.

My lessons

1. You are your own aesthetic.

2. Place boundaries (define them and respect them).

3. Grace, Gratitude and Plan.

Thank you for hearing me out in this blog. I really hope that this post helps you to appreciate that self-discovery takes time because it's a journey worth taking. Please be kind to yourself and take small steps to become who you want to be. Comments below on what identity struggles you've faced.

Stay tuned for a future podcast episode covering more detail of my lessons regarding 'identity'.

Until Next Time...Ludel.